comprehending death

has never been a favorite of mine.
wishing you had known someone more,
wishing you would have prayed for them more
while they were still here,
wondering why sadness is often so hard to overcome.
it is a fatiguing experience.







the afternoon has been a strange one. i have to say i have not been quite fond of it.
i'd prefer to just bundle myself in blankets
with a cup of hot cocoa
and watch an old Audrey Hepburn movie
while eating breakfast for dinner.
i'd prefer to lie and tell myself that there's no such thing as dying,
that even if not for better,
at least we have forever.






oh dear, today is just one of those desperate-for-a-hug days.