I graduate from high school tomorrow.

Last night on our senior trip, we sat in a circle as an entire class and spent hours and hours in one of the most incredible heart-to-hearts I have ever experienced. As I watched all my friends and acquaintances of 4 years come together and talk and laugh and cry and share, my heart was filled with such tremendous joy and sadness at where we've been and where we're going. After tomorrow night, our paths will fork off in different directions. It's something that's never been unexpected, but throughout high school it doesn't really hit you how much it will hurt to watch your entire world for 4 years disappear. I guess the thing that really threw me last night was having the person I admire most in our entire senior class look me in the eye and say that I was the one they admired. It hit me so hard to see someone so entangled in God, so real, so open, so willing to serve, with such a beautiful heart, say that they looked up to me. I guess some things we'll just never understand. 

All in all, I am so thankful for my class. I know for certain that without the many people who have held me up throughout the last 7 months I would not be alive right now. In all honesty, though we have all let each other down, we have been each other's backbone. I don't know how I will stand there tomorrow and watch those diplomas be received, tickets to new places and new people, and not fall apart. Life will never be the same. 

This season is proving to be an end to so many things. The slate is being wiped not only of high school, but of everything else I've ever valued and been familiar with in my life. I know that I have everything I need to take this clean slate and begin a beautiful new era of my life, but that knowledge does not stop the heart-wrenching effects of watching things and people slip away.