eighteen is soon.

I am filled with such clashing emotions.

For the first time in my life, everything has changed at once. There are no fall backs, there are no pieces of my life before a few months ago that I still carry with me. I'm adapting to the fact and learning that it's a beautiful thing in itself. Nothing is holding me back and nothing is swaying my opinions. I simply haven't figured out what I actually care about enough to keep as a semi-permanent change. 

I don't want to be 18 next month. 

But since the earth is still being pulled around on its axis, I am supposing it's unavoidable.